Beef?

Continuing with later part of Friday.
Headed back to my now second home (or rather that's how I'm gotta nickname it now) to shower and play minion rush!
Hahah. Nice to have a second home now in Singapore. After the past three years of changing two homes, and now I got a second home with a cosy bed for me to nap in every Sunday (so far).
A little errand to run with Bumpy's mom to Popular and Kitty kind of got stuck at the ice cream stick art. Lol. Now I'm just tempted to get a pack of coloured ice cream stick and make some kind of container with it or something.
After that it's a trip down to Bugis! A much needed trip there in a sense 'cause I needed to get my nail polish bottles and a watch. Maybe some accessories.
And we tried this store near Haji Lane which seemed to receive many positive feedback about their red wine chicken noodles. Feeling curious, we brought Bumpy's mom there for lunch as well.

On a Friday late afternoon, the shop was quite empty with only two tables occupied. And we ordered two bowls of the noodles together with a bowl of their home made fishballs to share. The foochow balls were nice, just that it didn't had enough filling, but still to know it was homemade was good enough. Especially nowadays all we get is factory-made fishballs. For the red wine chicken noodles, the soup base was good and with the mee sua noodles, it was a good combination. However, I wasn't exactly happy with the chicken. Not quite a fan of boiled chicken, 'cause the meat gets dried up and without much taste to it and with the huge chunks of chicken meat, the more I felt that the meat was too dry for my liking.
Overall, I might come back to eat if I'm just around the corner. I just might.

Seow Choon Hua Restaurant
33 Sultan Gate
Daily: 10:00 to 22:00

Fast forward a lot of hours. We had our couple romantic dinner together!
Our first earned candle light dinner in a nice cosy restaurant. Kind of like our monthsary dinner celebration. Last weekend we had lunch celebration, this week we do with a dinner celebration. Hahah! Either way, we're on foodie-diet.
A nice restaurant and we were seated in a cosy corner facing the window. The restaurant is famous for their beef and hence we're there to give it a little try. After all, I haven't been a good beef eater lately. A little strange for me to be eating beef in a cosy restaurant without wine, but hey there's always a first for everything. Was explaining to Bumpy how red wine is usually for red meat, and white wine is taken with seafood. And for me, dessert wine is with ice cream!
Super happy that Bumpy likes my favourite dessert wine; Brown brothers moscato. Just that for that price in S'pore, it's not worth getting a bottle. Super feel like flying to Australia just to buy my bottle of moscato, midori, doritos, tim tam, red rocks chips, honey melon and HUNGRY JACKS.

The freaking rib eye is huge! The size of my hand maybe. And with a bed of fries, yeaps I'm never losing weight.
P.s. the menu even convince me that the fries are free flow. Not that anyone would be insane enough to finish the fries and still ask for more.
But one thing I love is the lamb. FREAKING NICE.
So fine, maybe they are famous for their beef and lamb. Either way, I'm not coming back here again till I'm a working adult.

One thing for sure, it's the company that counts over the food.

Bishan Park

A little interesting Friday for Bumpy and I.
We managed to wake up for a morning run/walk/picture taking at Bishan Park. One of the nonsensical thing that I have been bugging/asking/bothering Bumpy since he enlisted into army; when would he run with me again?
And on Friday since he get a day earlier to book out, that's when he kept his promise. Okay technically not a promise but he gave in to my request (at last!).
We had a nice start, you know warming up and aiming to run 10km that morning and at least to cover that distance in whatever timing we will take. BUT HOR. The moment we reach Bishan Park, it was a whole different thing. Okay, kitty's fault since I got amused by the surrounding and self-reminding myself to snap pictures later. Eventually we just totally stopped the run and just snapped pictures instead. Good job!

 
Definitely a park I want to explore more the next time round and hopefully run a whole round! Hahah. No more pictures taking the next time, must concentrate on covering distance.
As much as I'm still in agony that I have to run such a long distance. Still, you can argue that it's cause I'm not training for it that's why I'm complaining about the distance. But logically thinking, it's not even advisable for someone whose longest distance ran is 12km (two years ago?) to suddenly triple her distance covered in such a short time.
Least when I'm not constantly running as well. Sigh at weird peer pressure. Just hope I can survive through the run and at least try not to walk that much. Hello music, you're my only company (if Bumpy only accompany me after 21km). After that I reckon I'm calling it quits for such insane distance for running, I'll dutifully stick to only 10km. Honestly, it's short attention span.

Mmkay enough of scenery pictures, now is couple pictures! Hahah.

 
At the end of the run, I asked Bumpy for a couple shot where he piggyback me! And he agreed \(^_^)/
Well, we did ask a passer-by to help me snap the pictures, but what was surprising was that he even snapped the process of the piggyback, sort of accidentally.
And it's the only freaking picture where it looked as though I have toned legs. Must treasure this rare picture!

We started off with a run, continued with a walk and ended with a piggyback!
Best morning spend of the week, of the month! And after that we're off for breakfast at Long John Silver and there goes the calories I tried burning off (but failed).

Creamier ice cream waffles

Cloudy with a chance of ice cream!
And that's what happen on a cloudy Thursday afternoon.
Hidden under and behind blocks, is a little cafe tucked away from the busy streets on Toa Payoh.
At the beginning, it took us a while to find the cafe, but with a turn of the corner and noticing the buzz at the front, we know we're arrived at our destination.

Simple design of the cafe. But one major flaw is the lack of available seats, and customers either have to stand and wait till a table is available or they can choose to have their dessert at the tables near the playground instead. We chose that option since we weren't sure how long we had to wait for a table. The only main thing we had to worry about is the black birds hovering above and nearby, as well as the undesired thought that ants might drop from the branches above.

The menu gave you a choice whether to have waffles with single or double scoop.
Flavors that day was Sea Salt Gula Melaka and Plain O' Chocolate.
Both are interesting flavors which I enjoyed, except that after eating it for a few more bites, I grown a little sickish of the flavor. Surprisingly to me, especially for the chocolate flavor, I mean for a person who adore chocolate, it was upsetting that I had to force myself to munch down the rest of the ice cream in cringed agony.
The waffles on the other hand were nice and crispy, unlike the other waffles places that I tried which had 'not too bad' waffles. The cripsy-ness was there and try your best not to spread the ice cream over the waffles too fast, they do, afterall, get soggy eventually.

Overall, it's a nice cafe. Just not one where I would see myself spending an enjoyable afternoon there. It's like finishing your dish so that others can have your table, and with the tables closely placed to each other, it's not the best chill out place either. Good for fast dessert eating. And with a reasonable price of $7.50 for the waffles set.
Bright side, it's a check off my list.

Shiok Maki

On Saturday I had one of the most enjoyable lunch with Bumpy.
One of the places that has been on my foodie list for a while, and we just haven't been there. The thought of the queue turn us off, and we weren't sure how long we would queue, especially on a weekend.
On Saturday afternoon, it was a bargain.
We were to meet there at noon, and it's for our monthsary lunch!
The awesome place to celebrate our monthsary together. And the night before we were up till super late (or early in the morning). Waking up about 9am the next day wasn't easy and initially we were meeting at 11am but it got pushed to noon instead.
A super good time I reached there at 11.45am and I even got a window seat! Hahah. Now I can spy on people while I have my lunch. Yes little minions walk past me and not know that there's someone upstair spying on your every move.
Half hour after I arrived, the crowd started kicking in and before I know it, the restaurant is packed. Even when we ordered then, we were told that we had to wait about half hour for our both maki to be ready.

Meanwhile, for the first dish, we had the grilled unagi ($15).
Super a big fan of grilled eel ever since I started eating it years ago, and it's always the sauce that makes the difference to whether it's good or just alright.
This dish won us over, the sauce was just awesome and together with the tender meat, I'm in love.
Hahah! Even the lettuce salad that came with the dish had a simple feel to it with the light sauce on it. Definitely glad we ordered it.

Our shiok maki gen 1 ($16.80) and salmon ($8) arrived next.
Just the perfect timing when we had finished the unagi. Now that's when we finally tried the dish that everyone has been talking about.
The first bite, or rather the first piece (freaking huge piece!) was mouth-watering. But I struggled a lot at the first bite. The thought of being greedy and wanting to stuff the whole piece inside my tiny mouth, but it failed in the end and I passed Bumpy the piece instead and took a smaller one.
Bloody hell, he opened his mouth and the piece went in easily.
Fine, I got a small mouth. Deal with it.
The sauce on top of the sushi was the one that made the difference, and how it makes the sushi better than the rest. As well as the grilled salmon at the top, it's a combination of shiok-ness alright. Somehow the sauce seemed to be a mixture of Japanese mayo and something else. Just can't figure out what.
But it's my favourite (okay second favourite after unagi).

The second shiok maki second gen arrived. Even with the half hour wait, I reckon it's alright since we needed time to consume each dish and we get to finish one dish before 'attacking' the second dish. For this dish, it's with grilled salmon at the top as well, with the awesome sauce but inside it's filled with grilled prawn instead. The first gen is with unagi, maybe also that's why I enjoyed it so much. For this, I didn't quite like the combination of prawn and salmon.
Conversely, it's Bumpy's favourite dish instead.
Either way, it's a must order dishes when you're at Koh Grill & Sushi Bar.

For the four dishes that we ordered, surprisingly it was just nice for two to share. Sufficient for lunch and quite filling as well. But one thing for sure, I'm definitely returning back here again maybe end of the year for another round of maki & unagi & salmon. Repeat the same four orders as today. Heheh!

Koh Grilled & Sushi Bar
Wisma Atria Shopping Centre #04-21
Daily: 11:30 - 22:30

After lunch we headed off wandering around Orchard. And Bumpy suddenly had the thought of getting macaroons. That's when it all begins...
I mentioned to him about the cheap macaroons that I found at the top floor of Ion which was selling for only $1.50. I mean I don't see macaroons selling that cheap before, even the minimum amount I thought would be $2. But $1.50 is a good steal. Let's just hope the cost and the taste is reasonable as well.

We tried two types of chocolate macaroons, just the lighter one include coffee. The darker one is with marshmallow filling. And that is better than the second one, softer and more chewy. The lighter one is nice as well, just that it wasn't that soft, feel like it has been in the fridge longer.

The second store we tried was from TWG. The macaroons selling at TWG are $2 per piece. A little more pricey but with more flavours available (but with weird names).
We tried three this time; a rose flavoured, a mint tea flavoured and one with kaya inside.
Personally, I felt that it was a major disappointment. The white and blue one taste more of kaya, mainly because of the kaya filling. And for macaroons I found it interestingly weird to have kaya filling.
And the rose flavoured, unfortunately, taste like bandung. Super funny. Bumpy had the first bite and told me of the taste, and when I had mine, after I realized what he mean, I started laughing.
Definitely not purchasing any more macaroons from TWG.

The last store to try was obviously from Laduree. And it is the most expensive one as well, we paid $3.80 each! I can get two pieces of macaroons at the first store for that price. This time we tried salted caramel and chocolate (yes again). The salted caramel was interesting, when you first bite it, you taste the sweet caramel, but eventually at the last taste, somehow you end up with a little bitter taste. Is it normal for all salted caramel macaroons? Even today when I told Carolin about it, she had the same experience with salted caramel (and we bought from different stores!). Perhaps it's just that way.
The chocolate piece is the best macaroons eaten! It just so chocolatey and awww, it does not feel like you're eating a macaroon but like a rich chocolate brownie. Hahah.
Appreciate Bumpy for being my hand model throughout the three store, holding his hands still for me to arrange the macaroons for pictures taking and holding out for three pictures each time.

And yay, I introduce Bumpy to my favourite Boost drink; King William Chocolate milkshake. A Boost drink that I always order when I'm in Australia and most people that I introduced to enjoy the taste of chocolate and bananas in the cup. It's in the indulgence section that is said to be 98% fat free (but is it?).

Off for birthday shopping after that before we headed down to Pasir Ris for another 21st birthday celebration. Almost died of exhaustion this weekend from staying out till 3am in the morning and waking up at about 9am the following day. And I almost fell asleep at the party as well. On the other side, it's also nice how Bumpy brings me along to his events and get me associated with his friends, as well as giving me some night life into my boring life.
Here to an awesome weekend and us crashing in bed on Sunday afternoon, two hours of napping and his mother's awesome dinner to end the day. Hahah. See it's almost as though I'm living with him already. Every Sunday afternoon is spend at his home, napping from our busy weekend before a family meal together. Soon it will be Bumpy turn to be doing that at my home, perhaps during his POP week. Make him come my place so much till his turn to feel as though he is living at my home. xD

Till another blog post, probably about more food again. 

Relationship tools

Just how to start this post...
What are relationship tools? Is it the essential to start a relationship, or the essential to maintain a relationship or just the essential of what your partner should have? Maybe it mean either one or it could also mean all three. Just dependent on your perspective view.

Lets start with the first one; essential to start a relationship.
Relationships of today, how does it begin? It starts with a simple hello, continued with a date and if you're lucky, it ends with a kiss or hug. Maybe not that lucky but ending the date on a good tone to know there would be a second date. Perhaps just enough hints to say 'yes I'm also interested in you'.
After all, it's always the first impression that counts the most.
Then again, it might not always be true. Some first date, it could be awkward, uncertain and unpredictable. You might not fall for the person immediately, you might not even think of falling for the person at all.
What do people look for before starting a relationship?
The first thing I looked for is communication; how well I can connect with the guy, whether we have common understandable topics. I want someone I can easily communicate with, someone I won't run out of topics to talk about and someone I can talk under the skies with.
Second is the comfortable level which would naturally with the ease of communication. That's when you know it's a good feeling.
But here the danger... How do you know you really like the person?
Sometimes we think that we like the person just cause we spend a lot of time together, it feels fun spending time together, things seems to be going well but is it really liking the person or liking the company? The question left unanswered.

The next essential is maintain a relationship.
How do relationship last? And what happen when eventually the fire flame dies out? Or what happen when you realize it isn't the love that you thought it was?
Do you let go? Do you take a step back and view the relationship from another point of view, change your perspective? Do you try to mend it or leave it broken?
Once we fall into a comfortable pattern of being with each other, we drop our guard, we be ourselves and eventually we stopped showing love the initial way when first getting together, the surprises become less frequent, affections decrease and perhaps communication become lesser.
Hearing the words 'I miss you' and 'I love you' might seemed redundant when said to often that it lost the initial meaning when it was first said.
What happens next? Maybe temptation seed in when you start spending more time with someone else. You start to fall to the other party, you drift away from what's yours and before you know it, you tell yourself that you like the other party better, you feel that your boyfr/girlfr don't love you the same.
How often do we see on confession page about relationship problems? About people asking for advice whether to continue their relationship or break off?

So how do one maintain their relationship? Through commitment, communication, understanding, the continuous showing of love and affection and knowing that some things are worth holding on to instead of regretting it only after you lost it.

The last one; the essential that your partner should (or must?) have. I guess as always we have this little secret list comprising of criteria. Criteria such as understanding, patience, loving or stable. We all want a few important criteria in our future spouse. But is it a must for the person to fulfill every criteria on the list? What if they miss an item or two and replace it with a fault instead? Or worst, what if the fault replaced is something that turn you off.

I used or still have a list for my future husband. One that I try to compromise by changing it once in a while. But still on the list there are some items which unfortunately cannot be compromise, cannot be removed from the list. What or how is your list like?

With the topic of relationship tools, there another meaning for it. Such as treating your boyfr/girlfr as a tool. But what does that mean? Something that crossed my mind while chatting to Bumpy and guess that also how this post is formed.

The way we treat our boyfr/girlfr is the tool. Simple gestures such as asking to carry the bag/books, paying for the meals, hinting to get the items you want or the worst; for sex.
Maybe you will question what wrong with my boyfr helping me carry my bag or books. Of course it would be deemed as a gentlemen act to carry your books but handbag?
It would and is common for the guys to offer to pay for the meals, and also going Dutch. It's not an absolute must that guys must always treat. Instead it would surprise them if the girl offer to pay, even if it's her share only. Don't forget, the money (if he's not working) comes from his parents and while he may be treating some of the meals, it is also a gentle reminder not to take advantage of it. At the same time, it seemed weird and well, critic that people get mistaken at you eating good food when you're attached. Maybe it's just that the couple is a foodie pair and enjoy the delight of food hunt, but that doesn't mean you only eat good food when you're with your boyfr/girlfr. It just seemed the norm to say 'wah not bad siol, eat good food with boyfr, rich lah!'.
Mainly it's a week indulgence with Bumpy that I look forward to, a meal that after a hard week, we get to sit and chill and enjoy an awesome meal together and not forgetting the fatdie dessert. And usually, we know guys, they want their girlfr to enjoy their meal and the naturally thinking that 'I MUST FATTEN HER UP!'. Lol. It never gets old. Till now, Bumpy said every weekend he has every intention to ensure I am well fed. And he kept to that promise alright (my poor weight!). I'm not succeeding any time soon on my weight loss (major sigh).
The worst I feel is hinting to guys to get what you want. And even worst if it's an expensive item. Guys aren't your sugar daddy to buy you what you want, and least of all, their parents' money should not be spend on buying expensive gifts. Even if they're working, it's money for their future and for themselves as well. You may argue that if they're working and it's their money, therefore they can choose how to spend it, whether buying gifts for you or slurping on themselves. Honestly, earning your own money does not mean you get to spend it all. And other times, it just show how you manage money, and how you don't see the worth that for the amount of hours you have worked, you have ridiculously spend the money in minutes, maybe even seconds.
Last one, tools for sex. We often read about one-night-stand, having sex within the first three (or five) dates and even unprotected sex or shotgun marriages (or not, but unplanned pregnancy).
How about those minority who does not want to be committed into a serious relationship, but yet the thought of having a girl with benefits just without the complication of relationship status. You do everything like a couple (except much dating and maybe sending home or meeting each other friends) and the date usually ends or starts in bed. What are girls to them in this case? A tool, a need to satisfy oneself or just for convenience sake?
The mindset of the current generation is changing, it is moving away from the traditional thinking where we save ourselves for marriage, we are moving from the thinking that we want to save ourselves for our spouse. What will happen then in the next generation?

Some nonsensical thoughts and ranting for today. After all, it's Monday blues and I got a test tomorrow.

Top of the 57th floor

The weekend has been crazy, that's the best summary I will give.
From Friday that I picked my Bumpy up from Pasir Ris till now, I think I have been having too much fun and a little too little sleep. Hahah.
We started with family dinner on Friday night with his family, simple yong tau fu and yes I am exploring more areas of Toa Payoh. Kind of an achievement for me since I barely touched much of Toa Payoh and it's always fun to explore the hawker food around Singapore.
Soon, Bumpy and I shall venture out towards hawker food (when our wallet is broke).

At night we had a birthday celebration to attend, so we headed down to MBS. Whoohoo. Honestly, I never been inside MBS rooms before, so it's kinda exciting to see how the view like (most importantly) and also how the room likes. And just maybe a year down in future or more, maybe book a room to stay there overnight and swim in the infinity pool.
Till then, I have my mind set on Studio M first.

No pictures of the birthday celebration though. Wasn't that close to the birthday boy and I'm there as my Bumpy's girlfriend. Though we had fun playing SMELLY WOMBAT. Hahah. And it's just funny how I stare too intensely at the cards. Guess I can't do any poker face or anything, or focus on two things at once.
How to play smelly wombat?
There has to be even number of players in the game and each player will have their partner sitting opposite them. Each player will be given 4 cards and the aim is to get 4 of the same number to win. Once everyone have their cards, the dealer deal out another 4 cards to place in the middle and that's when the madness begins.
Everyone would grab the cards that they want, in exchange of the cards that they don't want. And this goes on until someone have their winning cards. Now here the fun part. You can't let anyone know that you have the winning cards. Only your partner have to know through a special signal that you have between you two, and once your partner shout WOMBAT, you both win! But if you do the special signal and your partner didn't notice the signal but someone else does, they will shout SMELLY WOMBAT and you both lost.
Sound fun?

And I realize that outings with Bumpy never result me in over drinking or even me getting overly tipsy. Which is a super good thing 'cause he is helping me drink on my behalf. Although that mean drinking double but it also mean I get home in a good state of mind and not reek of alcohol.
And best of all, I don't get a bad hangover the next day.
Sensible drinking.

Instead, we headed up to the observation desk of MBS for the perfect night view of Singapore.

And well, we can't only take pictures of the scenery alone. There has to be people in the picture too right?

One thing you really detest about taking night pictures is the horrible lightning. It's either too dark or too bright. So hard to get the right brightness out without the use of flash.
So we kind of spend an hour upstairs with pictures taking, trying to get the right setting, the right exposure, and well, eventually no flash was used, and we used iphone torch light instead to get the brightness out, and also to set the iso a little.
Well, another reason to say I need to use my camera more. And not just leave it at home half of the time but actually learn how to take nice pictures with it.

But well, we celebrated the start of our third monthsary with a beautiful night view, and pictures taking.
A moment I don't want to forget.

Eventually after the party ended, and friends went different ways. Some wanted to drink, some wanted to head home, and some wanted to head to Pasir Ris for the next birthday celebration the next day.
For both of us, we wanted to eat!
And finally, like finally, Bumpy is bringing me to Swee Choon, after the countless times of me asking him to go with me. Super happy when he finally agreed!

We ordered about less than 10 dishes, mainly 'cause we weren't that hungry but still wanted something to eat. Some of the items that we ordered include: Char siew bao, Siew mai, Salted egg custard buns, Red bean pancake and carrot cake!
To finally try Swee Choon, I wasn't sure to be disappointed or like hmmm!
For one, I didn't enjoy the char siew bao at all. And for me, it's a super big deal 'cause I'm a big fan of char siew bao. So that's strike one down.
But to mke up for it, the custard bun was  not too bad, good flowing salted egg custard inside and it's good.
The carrot cake is awesome as well, crispy on the outside and nice chewy on the inside.
The siew mai also is not bad, though it was weird that it was served on metal plate instead of the usual. Though it's still not bad, but the presentation of the dishes wasn't that nice.
Overall, I might return back here again if I'm in the area but maybe not specifically.
Next place to try; 126!

Awesome fun yet tiring night. And I reckon during the supper/early breakfast eating time, we were both super tired and can almost doze off while eating. Hahah!
Every weekend my Bumpy is still guilty of sending me home late. Hahha. K.O. the moment I hit the bed. Too exhausted and needed strength for the next day.

Too much eating and travelling in a day. And it's a good thing it's only the weekend that I'm up that late so I have the weekday to regenerate my strength.

Relationship and its troll

The month of September for me seemed to be about ex boyfriend's girlfriend.
Strange but true.
Yet I don't get how all of it resurface just within the last two weeks, maybe it's better to face the demons of the past than to avoid it.
This post is about ex-es and how well things went and ended, and maybe more. We'll see how it goes.

Being in a relationship teaches one to grow up, learn that now there are two people in a relationship and not just your selfish self. Yet it definitely also shows the ugly side of one's most inner self to the one you love most.

At the beginning, we tend to hide the dark side of our lives. Not ready to let the other one know how you're actually like, your short temper perhaps, but gradually as we settle into a comfortable pattern, we let our guard down and we slowly reveal who we really are. Sometimes that when arguments and disagreements happen 'cause we can't get along and personalities clash. Then we pick up the bond through communication, understand how each other is like, the likes and dislikes and how to settle misunderstanding. Sometimes the path goes smooth, yet other times it might be a little rough here and there. At the end of the day, it depends on how the couple is going to work things out and not throw away something just 'cause its broken, but choose to mend it properly.

It's not easy to admit that I been through depression, down dark side of my lives where everything I perceived is negative. The amount of blood bled from my endless slashing on my wrist for 5 years can't be measured. Maybe it was the darkest moment of my teenager life. But no, not all blame why I slashed goes to boyfriends.

The ex then had a sweet tongue, able to tell you stuffs that you want to believe. The kind that waits for you to reach school every morning before accompanying you to class to put your bag down, and head upstairs to have a morning chat. Though the kind that also doesn't ask you out on more than one date, and the nerve to arrive late on the first and last date. Yet the kind that is able to sweet talk you again after 5 years and admit that he still has feelings for you and want to get back together. Unbelievable story. AND to think he can convince that while having a girlfriend. The dirty bastard side of him that you don't want to even think about. Now I see him, I see him as a past and a past I never want to look back. Unfortunately, the secret got out and his girlfriend knew what happened, but at a bad timing after breaking up. Perhaps if she seen my message earlier, all these could have been avoided.

Maybe that's the thing we can't predict. Knowing how the person really is, even when we think we know everything.

Then there the ex of the controlling freak. Insecure, needy, never listening to what I said, stubborn. The good side is he pampered me a lot through gifts from sweets to monthsary presents to even the extra step of cooking for me. Yet it annoyed me that I tell him countless times never to pick me up after school, it never got inside that brain of his. Interestingly, it took me ages to break up. It was a mental torture inside but it had to be done sooner or later, better sooner actually. Little did I know that after the breakup, he had that amount of hatred and anger killing him inside for me. Sweet to know that despite the years, he couldn't forget me. But the amount of hidden pride inside him and the extreme insecurity didn't prevent his girlfriend from breaking up with him too. It's amusing when she found out he cried when I broke up with him, one that she didn't expect. And well, added to the list, now there would be double the anger and hatred killing him slowly.

There are more stories perhaps to share in due time.

I've moved on, maybe I'm still in the process of moving on, not just from past breakups but from past events/incidents that continue to taunt me here and there. After all, everyone have their own skeletons in their closet. Be it stealing boyfriends, cheating, unloved childhood and so on. I believed everyone changed over time, just a matter whether it's towards good or bad. They can change for the better if they choose to.

Right now, I'm happy being Bumpy's girlfriend. He's sweet, understanding, loving, patience, nonsensical and most importantly, he's being himself with me. And he makes me happy. And only I can bully him and feel bad about giving him claw marks then after, but only because he allows me to.

I know sometimes people wonder, isn't it fast that we got together within a short period of knowing each other. Shouldn't you know more about the other person before making the impulsive rush decision to get together. Like what he said me, he didn't believe that one should totally know each other before getting together, but being in a relationship is the continuous process of getting to know more about the person.

I don't know what my future is, be it 10 years down the path or even what happen tomorrow or next week. For now, I'm living my life as Bumpy's girlfriend and who knows maybe wife to be in future (hint hint). Hahah. I could be my nonsensical self with him, roaming around the house like I live there, opening his closet and stealing his shirts to wear and slowly 'borrowing' things from him which I wonder when I would return (Shhh don't tell him!). And it's a comfortable feeling.

We all meet bastards once in a while in our life. And it's bastards like these that teach us to be more cautious to who we give our hearts to the next time round, to be cautious of the world around us and that sometimes we need to play a little hard to get to see if the guy is willing to put the effort first. It takes time to heal all wounds, but eventually it would.

Maybe not the physical wounds.