Annoyance

The longest I haven't been typing on my blog and my frustration increase each day. It seemed as though my Internet browser is suffering from virus attack or something is up with the useless ads that keep posting on the web page whenever I want to type a post, as such I can't post anything on my blog for weeks. Still yet to figure out the issue, maybe to reinstall my Internet browser again. And mind you I tried it with google chrome and Firefox, both didn't work.

November holidays are here for me and ever since exams ended and holidays started, well, my days are mainly slacking in the morning but stressful and annoying in the afternoon. Another week and my holidays would have ended. Don't think I can confidently said I spend it well, yet I feel it was a good rest also before December kicks in and studies kick in again. The next six months going to go pass very fast, that's for sure and I'll definitely look forward to the end of my course next year. Firstly it makes the end of my diploma course, the mark of my first year anniversary with my love (I know we will be together then and longer!) and a holiday trip to look forward to. As much as it isn't the destination that I wanted to go, still it is a place I haven't been to before and would love to visit.

As the year end draws near, reflections start kicking in unconsciously into your mind, questioning whether you have live up to your new year resolution, whether you did something good this year or whether have you changed for the better. Definitely I'll dedicate a post for that in December to perhaps write a short summary of this year. But with a warning that it is my personal post and whatever thoughts anyone would have after reading it, I most certainly would not be interested to know. The last time I wore such a post and stopped it halfway for a good suspense, it didn't end well but the closure of a good blog. Hopefully this time would be different.

For now, guess it's easier to focus on the present and look forward to tomorrow. After all, tomorrow my love gets to book out from his outfield which I have much dreaded it for the lack of communication. A short weekend this time but that doesn't mean I can't fully utilized it either. May time pass slowly. And next Thursday to arrive faster. On a lighter note, it's a week more to my last marathon/race event of the year and guess what, I'm nowhere near prepared for the race. The thought of completing 42km taunts me everyday when I see runners jogging past me, in preparation of what to come while I'm here on my bed without much motivation to run, let alone leave my beloved bed.

It's almost 1am and I'm awake. Which only means the amount of things bothering and affecting my sleep. Lets just hope it will pass and while it's tiring to be an emotion support, you can only be positive that the person trusted you so much with their problems. And maybe on my side, I'm not ready to open everything up or trust that whoever I'm telling my issues to will understand, encourage, support, listen and not tell others. Or let alone whether I'm willing to open up when there so many things bothering you at once and you're just at the beginning of trying to sort them out and think through them.

December be nice. After all, you are my favorite month of the year.